It is very quiet here now.
A friend of thirty years, who decided he didn’t want to be a friend anymore, because of religion once quoted a Catholic Priest to me. The quote was a favourite of his, “No matter where you go there you are.”
This morning I did not want to wake up. Whatever I was dreaming was so awesome I wanted to stay there. I did wake up anyway.
Life is getting better. There are always things that are messed up and no doubt there will always be such things but over all life is getting better. I just need to remind myself sometimes when there is pain or exhaustion that is hard to explain.
I thought coming to this new place would change my life in a radical way and, while there is no question life has changed radical would not be the word I would use, I am still here. I am still me. I didn’t suddenly find a miracle doctor and I didn’t meet the (very LITERAL) man of my dreams either. I met lots of people and some of them are very nice it is just that everyone is concerned with their own lives, as I also am.
It made me think how rare and precious it is, indeed, to find anyone who will share your life, as a friend, who is also compatible with you. Sometimes the compatible ones are already booked and the available ones are second to what you and I have booked for ourselves. That doesn’t mean people don’t care they DO care but it does mean there are only 24 hours in a day.
You know why people cry at weddings sometimes? It isn’t always because it is beautiful. Sometimes people cry because a profound change is taking place. Parents cry because a child they love will no longer be living in their house. Best friends cry because they know all the years spent together are now over.
We lose people to life all the time. Sometimes we lose them to death too. The only certainty in life is change. Sometimes only certainty never changes, like, “No matter where you go there you are.”