Nickle-plated Ovid

Their ice-picks

Far better
Icons flopping
Why wifi-ivy loops
Around your musing brain

I see you
Trying to reduce the wiring
Nostrils flare the proofs
It’s dancing monsters
Punch sick

With no such irony
Pointing eight-to-the-barre
Boy you are


Like ice-kicked

Of mine

If ‘I’ is
Nickel-plated Ovid


Spin into the whirl of all things
Sparkle with tears or smiles
Come my Soul
You are the only Beloved
I love because You are my mirror
I see You in every set of fervent eyes
Almost giving up the fight for Justice
Walking on and on when the reason is forgotten
I can only dive into Your depths
You are is so many hearts
You are a light that shines to light
Distant oasis of Joy in words of despair
You are always there
When pain is the strongest You show me how to bare my teeth
To mock
Once tender and sweet
Now stern like winds that lift the red iron dirt into the sky
Dropping whirlwinds
You are not me as I can be seen
You are the quest in the unseen
You are the prayers that go with electric force
Into the minds of Love
They cannot see You flowing into them
You are not trapped by these walls
You leave in sleep and see the worlds
You show me love like no human can
Safe in you I dwell my Soul
Sing for me
Old words
I am more
You see the clown with the sad eyes
Is only a disguise
I am hear
Watch the children play the games you used to know
Let them go
They cannot understand
Play a while
Know it is just a play
Love is there just ahead
Love is You my soul
You have cradled my head when I screamed to heavens unhearing
I could not see you were there always
Holding me as close as a Lover does

Dear Pic Scout Dot Com.

I looked you up and apparently you try to make bogus lawsuits on images that other people already stole. FYI the images in my blog are 1) attributed or 2) belong to me and I refuse to sue myself and I WILL sue whoever claims my feet belong to them as I CAN PROVE IN COURT those feet are MY FEET! If you choose to steal my photo please send money.

Thank you

Dreaming Together

We live in a world that seems to be in a mass Apocalyptic Dream. No matter where you go someone is coming to save mankind from itself…or not. Scientists are sure we are destroying the planet with our need for fossil fuel. Each religion seems to have a current theme from Isa (AS) returning to save the world to Khalki the Destroyer cleansing the planet to Mother Nature ridding herself of the human ‘virus’ but; whatever people think they are all on the same page in a large majority these days. 

It’s all in our heads.

Someone once said that we can make anything that is in our heads come true. If this is the case why do good people die early and bad people rule the world? If we all have a concept of ‘fair and equal’ why isn’t everything fair and equal? Is it possible we cannot make anything we want happen with our minds or can we…

…in dreams?

In dreams you can do just about anything you can imagine. You can fly in dreams and travel to oceans and seas you never saw in your life. You can meet people with real names and live whole real stories in dreams. Thirty percent of a human life is spent sleeping. While a person is in REM sleep their brain is rapid firing electrical impulses in a measurable way.

This brings me to the same old question I ask over and over and over again that someone asked me once upon a time: “What sees your hand?”

In essence, through a short series of questions, the one answering in brought to the very real idea that the human brain could not see anything without the electrical force that powers it and that not a single one of us can SEE what sees our hand. We are, therefore, NOT what we can see. We ARE what is in our minds. This is where the ‘spooky action at a distance’ idea comes in.

Have you ever wished your mom would cook something special and she did? How often have you completed your best friends sentence? Have you ever FELT someone praying for you?

Science says these things are mere coincidence. They say we make it up and it is all in our heads and maybe it IS all in our heads? MAYBE…if the media can convince enough people the world is going to go ‘BOOM’ them maybe it WILL go BOOM?

I am just dreaming here and living in my head…just asking the questions. I really don’t know any of the answers except for one surefire thing. I am NOT what sees my hand. To put it another way…My mind is MORE real than the three dimensions I inhabit. No I am not any kind of god to change whatever I please at will or I would do that easily BUT my mind is more real than my hand, my eyes or my brain. If you think you are not the same you are mistaken. Is it all in my mind that people can influence me without words or that they know when I am praying for them?

You bet it is! It is as real as the nose on your face.


Out There…

…somewhere I know there are people making love, watching movies with the kids, and maybe even making snow angels at night.

I am alone here but, somehow, all of the smiles and emotions of everyone I love are like the panoramic background of my thoughts. I feel you hugging, fighting, silently angry, laughing. and living real life. I get to do more of that all the time.

One of these days I will be like them too. Already it had started. Only weekends and holidays now do I have the option of ‘all day’ to choose from in between tasks and doctor visits and pain. Soon there will be more reasons to be gone from the boxed life.

The other day I cried until I made myself sick because I was busy being very very tired from living real life and when I found out I missed a precious friend I only got to talk to twice this year I went berserk and then stopped and wondered: “do they miss me that much?”

There is a feeling of guilt to leaving those who have come to rely on your friendship and company and a feeling of loss when you miss them because, even though people say the box is not real and the people in it are not real they ARE real. There are real hands typing real words on a keyboard somewhere with real feelings, hopes and dreams.

I can’t wait to start swim therapy.

I will be gone one or two hours every evening they have it. I can’t walk very well but surely I can swim! It means I may miss people. I have to learn not to cry over the precious ones.

Reasons I do, in fact, need money


Because reasons

“For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil”

My high-school English teacher drilled this into my head so much that I now automatically correct people when they get it wrong. It can be embarrassing, especially when you weren’t even part of their conversation – bus journeys get that much more awkward.

Money is pretty much pointless and I have no need for it – well apart from, you know, being able to buy things. Like that cute leather satchel, or food. Priorities are questionable when you’re unemployed.

Leaving the house has now become more treacherous than before because not only do you forget how to interact with other humans, there lies strong temptation. Strong temptation to shop – which, as mentioned previously, is impossible without money. It’s a fragile balance to maintain.

Recently my friend and housemate’s mum came to visit so, being not employed and…

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Tag Prose

I am ALIVE and an Angel from heaven is guarding the Angels from Hell while Barbie Beautiful Ruins my dreams Before I Sleep. Beloved Blessings from Raindrops while drinking Blood Wine in a vampire-style Box Script as Shadows, breathless, want me staring. Can you sleep yourself to death?

Card Art Chains on the memory of my beautiful cinnamon.I wear this Coat of Flesh the same as the cockroach and it’s Companions the Cosmic demons sing with Desire upon Earth‘s Electric Paradise their pornographic Erotica.

Facebook Faces in a storm. You  Friends With The Devil Habibi? Hella Hell is a Creature and maybe there is the Holy GrailI’m not like you but I am your door and I love you without words.

Left Behind Little Girl. Remember the Medicine water? My own songs, My StoryNaked, in nanowrimo 2011.

nature Nothing

Oil in Oklahoma where the wind comes sweeping down the plain… Old Scratch in the Orwellian Paradise and only pasha makes Peace. I love his Photo-breaks. Planet Caravan travels through raindrops, through Ravan, through red dirt and this martian crumbled in joy.

Red Dirt Road yes you redneck Sexy Naughty Shifting with a Smile knowing Stones are not thrown at fruitless trees.

Sufi with the Sunken Treasures of the The Cosmic Freeway who loves the The Father Of Many. The Muses, The rain song, Walking on Rainbows, War, Water is Life, and yes I am  Weird Weird WEIRD alien!


Yesterday all my troubles seemed so far away.

I love You.


I am in the process of moving, to an assisted living center, starting this Friday. I will not have time to read and comment until the move is complete. I have enjoyed all the things I have read from the ‘down home’ style to the truly macabre and everything in between. See you all when the furniture is set back up somewhere else!


My Fourth Anniversary With WordPress

I got this site for free four years ago and used it, mostly, as a ‘work storage’ space and, for free, it is an awesome space but I never considered trying to become more professional until about a half a year ago. I did not have the money to do that at the time so I just kept writing and storing until, when I was finally able to learn more and buy the domain that allowed me to do more of the kind of things I wanted to do, I had 600 pieces of work.

It never occurred to me to network. It never occurred to me this could be a social site for readers. After the domain purchase and after getting some help with Danyal Haseeb, (who is listed in those I follow), the blog finally looks and feels like a professional place. D.H. promises to help me make it MORE professional when my domain runs out next year. I will save up the money for that as I can. That kid is an AWESOME IT person I was glad to meet him at Facebook.

Just previous to meeting Mr. Haseeb I was tapped by the ‘Opinionated Man’ and learned a few things from him as well.

I hope this is a good year.

I spent many hours editing (I still have some to go and I am thinking that may be a continuous process) and found redundancies in those 600 plus works and promptly trashed them. It is up and coming and more to post soon.

Enjoy you all and will be reading more soon!

Prostituted Women & Trafficking

This is a well written take on the prostitution trade. A worthy read.

Very Bad Apple

| By Paul Brown |

While the common consensus regarding the role and position of prostituted women within western society has increasingly become one of vague liberalism and hazy notions of ’empowerment’, with a lazy emphasis on women’s ‘right’ to prostitute themselves or be prostituted, one area in which public and official opinion is resolute is on the subject of trafficking. While the legalisation of the trade in women we have seen in Germany and the Netherlands has often been lauded as enlightened, and the prohibition or criminalisation of buying women in Sweden and Iceland is perceived as totalitarian or authoritarian, what is often overlooked is the unavoidable fact that legalisation has in fact increased gangsterism and criminal exploitation rather than freeing women to supposedly do as they please with their bodies and lives.

The German government discovered that 90% of the country’s 400,000 prostituted women were under ‘constraint’, in…

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These are kid’s things but adults can still get use from the ideas in them. Just because we get older does not mean we forget how to invent fantasy.

But I Smile Anyway...


So while having a rummage and sort through, I found these.I bought them for use in school, but obviously squirreled them away…as you do, so I think I might roll some dice now and then to inspire me to write something, long or short.

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I Am Blessed…Thank you God…

…for all the people you sent in my path this year.

For the first time in over three years this blog has become more than just a ‘free dump’ for my thoughts. It have taken days, effort, hours and HELP from experienced people who have given me ideas. The ‘Opinionated Man’ started it off and the IT expert Haseeb Danyal helped me to finish it and they both have sites here if you want to check them out. Check out ‘’ for Haseeb and check out ‘’.

OP got me started with the idea I have now to make this blog-site a working site, Check his page it’s chock full of tips when he is not ranting and Haseeb is an IT crack shot with all the answers I needed about that subject.

I had no New Years Resolutions. I gave those up years ago I just live my life. My biggest resolution is to remember to write ‘2015’ instead of ‘2014.’

That said, I plan to devote a great deal more time to this new project than I have before, in the past. I have a whole book to edit and all the drafts to throw in and blogs to write and poetry to post and I am looking forwards to this and all will be well In sha Allah.

I have a contact box if you want password to anything (I give those out on a discretionary basis). Yes I am a sinner. I am human. Everyone is human like that.

Thank you Azam for the internet connection. You have been the most awesome person and than you to my brother Beato and my mom and and my sister Wisdom and Fawad and Pasha and The Team At Ink-slingers. The have a self-hosted WordPress site, ‘’.

They have all helped and inspired me to be the best I can be in my current situation in life. I owe them this ability to type here and I am grateful.

This blog is now officially cleaned up and ready for ACTION!

People have an idea about Muslims that is not necessarily true. Each culture and each nation have different ways of practicing our beliefs. My style is American. Liberal Muslim American (Which is mostly conservative American hence the passwords on some things.)

There will be times I re-blog something that conflicts with something else. I am like that. I don’t like to get trapped in a ‘definition-box.’

Re-blogs will go automatically to “contents” and much of my old stuff is still there but everything is pretty well ironed-out now. Haseeb promises to help me next year, again, if we are all still here.

Happy Blogging!!!!!

Bless you all for this year!

The 2014 List

Interesting read!

borgo nyc


My top five highlights and my formal New Year’s Resolution.

1. Harvoni – a new treatment for Hepatitis C became available in 2014, a medicine that cures 9 out of 10 people with the particular strain of the virus that I have. I started treatment on November 17. Thanks to my insurance company, I will be able to take this medicine at no cost for 24 weeks. Today marks the completion of 5 weeks. Thanks also to my liver doctor, my cousin Andy Wagner, the Office of the Kings County District Attorney, and the City of New York.

2. An engagement – Joaquin and I became engaged to be married. Our plan is to do this on or about 3/14 at City Hall. I hereby invite anyone who wants to to come. If you are serious about it, message me or email me if you know my personal email. There…

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