Papa

Papa

We say goodbye
Each moment flies away
I never loved you enough

We

We loved so deeply it was hate
Our strong weakness
Belonging no where
To no one
Escaping any way we could

The unlivable moment

The unlivable moment
I fight the demons you left behind
You lived them
I let my mouth form your words
Until you could not stand
You use my eyes to see
I am now in your tracks
You walk with me now
The future of lost impossibilities

You tried so hard
Inspiring death
You tried to be
Inspiring fear
A man no one taught you to be
Inspiring awe
Working each idea each day
Hurling prayers in tornadic winds
Throwing time away
A force like Nature
For all our sakes

A Titan

A baby crying
The bloody walls
You tried to teach me
The bloody halls
You tried so hard
The moment peace came
Intensity without a name
In golden strength
Singing away the years
Until you sang
Tears slide into tears
Waves of life away
One tear slides
Full of burning water

The saddest part
That loved never loved
Of each of you
Full of your heart
Screams in my head
Every tear falling now
Old lullabies

Old lullabies
Can we start everything again
When love was a river
Walk against this limit
When there was a family
Papa take my hand
When there was a chance
To

LIVE

Papa Meet Me There

Meet me there
Out where wind sweeps the plains
Where the buffalo roam
Meet me in my only home
The world I know only from books
The words only from souls I meet
Along the highways I travel
Words are only human babble
Meet me there
Out where the hot springs bubble
Out where the caves fall in
Where tall grass lands begin
I spent a lifetime wishing
I lived somewhere else
Not seeing all around me
In it’s illimitable beauty
Meet me there
You will smile that big white grin
When we meet upon that ground
Walk side by side without a sound
Under oil country sun
When I held the universe
In one childish set of hands
The shiny beaded agate strands
Meet me there
Where sorrows fade into the skies
Fall with thunder from It’s eyes
Strike the ground with burning sound
Where voices carry on the air
Papa

Meet me there.

Papa

Papa
When did we really hate each other so much?
Can’t you see I am exactly like you?
I am sorry I was not a boy,
But you did get one,
I wish….I wish you never knew what alcohol was,
I wish you stayed that awesome person
You were before the other kids could understand

If you come through this snowy night
Like I know you will
I know you will never hear this
Or read it…
But maybe you would know one day…I remember you…
When you sang like an angel.
I remember you when you started the campfire
And took us to swim where the water was clean enough to drink…
You taught me about the plants,
The animals,
All the life around,
The meanings in the stars,

Papa
I know I was never the one you could be proud of
Always the rebel
Always the one who faced you off like another man…

Papa I am just like you…